BJ Bignell
Je n'aurai plus peur
I'm not the first person to suffer a photographic drought, but it's really starting to get to me... I've hardly taken a picture in the past two months, and I have no motivation. I'm even in the middle of a six-week vacation, visiting family and friends I haven't seen for a whole year, and I just can't be bothered to pull the camera out of the bag. I'm getting so frustrated with myself. :bang:
I think I know the primary cause of this drought: Lack of feedback. Over the past year, I must have shot 5000 pictures or more, but I haven't seen a single one. Travelling ate up all of the monies, and there's been nothing left to pay for the processing. I have bags of film sitting in the freezer, waiting to be processed, to be loved, but no money to do it with.
So what should I do? Sit and stew about it, digging a deeper mental hole? Done. Pull the camera out of the bag and hope for divine intervention, only to put it back unused? Done. Just take a break, and tell myself that there is plenty of time to take those pictures I want? Done.
None of those ideas worked, of course, so I'm taking a different approach: Today, I will go out into the countryside, somewhere quiet and isolated, with a few pieces of equipment and a maybe tripod. I will make photographs, tens of photographs, dozens of photographs, as many rolls as I can until I get sick/tired/hungry or the light disappears. I will make a determined effort to use a lot of film, and to see something new through the viewfinder.
Tomorrow, I will take these rolls for developing, and I will see the results. I will be motivated by the successes and - perhaps more imporantly - by the failures, and I will begin to feel like I can do this again. I will not only feel like I must make photographs, but I will truly feel that I want to make photographs.
I have a goal.
I have a plan.
Wish me luck.
I think I know the primary cause of this drought: Lack of feedback. Over the past year, I must have shot 5000 pictures or more, but I haven't seen a single one. Travelling ate up all of the monies, and there's been nothing left to pay for the processing. I have bags of film sitting in the freezer, waiting to be processed, to be loved, but no money to do it with.
So what should I do? Sit and stew about it, digging a deeper mental hole? Done. Pull the camera out of the bag and hope for divine intervention, only to put it back unused? Done. Just take a break, and tell myself that there is plenty of time to take those pictures I want? Done.
None of those ideas worked, of course, so I'm taking a different approach: Today, I will go out into the countryside, somewhere quiet and isolated, with a few pieces of equipment and a maybe tripod. I will make photographs, tens of photographs, dozens of photographs, as many rolls as I can until I get sick/tired/hungry or the light disappears. I will make a determined effort to use a lot of film, and to see something new through the viewfinder.
Tomorrow, I will take these rolls for developing, and I will see the results. I will be motivated by the successes and - perhaps more imporantly - by the failures, and I will begin to feel like I can do this again. I will not only feel like I must make photographs, but I will truly feel that I want to make photographs.
I have a goal.
I have a plan.
Wish me luck.