Chris,
What projects would you really like to tackle (if you are happy to disclose)?
I'd like to devote more time to my work photographing Fort Wayne. I have three related projects on my website that are about Fort Wayne. The
Waynedale and
Wells Street portfolios concentrate on two areas of the city that especially interested me, while the
Fort Wayne project is everything else I have done in the city.
I don't feel like that I have gotten 'deep enough' in my exploration. Doing so requires more time than I have available, so that I can meet the people and go beyond the buildings. Right now, I am struggling to support myself and my son by selling my work off my website and doing web design and some commercial work to bring in the money, while working on my MA (so I can hopefully be employable if I ever do need a 'real job') and taking care of him on my own (his mother is mentally ill and not able to do much for him) and still keeping up with my photography work.
It is hard and I am very busy. My son feels like I don't have time for him sometimes, and that upsets me because he's right, but I have to earn money to feed us and I feel like I better get my masters in case things get so bad economically that I do need a job.
That is a huge fear for me, because before I moved away to Santa Fe, I applied for more than 800 jobs and no one would hire me. Only two places even called me for interviews! People privately told me that my art degree made me "Unemployable," which I believe given how none of my classmates ever found jobs either.
Hated moving so far from my son back then (his mother had custody then), but it was that or end up homeless. So, I left. A few yrs later, having made some connections out in NM, I was able to come back to Indiana and live off my income from NM clients and after I came back, people started buying my work online too. Soon after I came back, my son's mother was locked up by the state in a psych hospital for a year and I was given permanent custody of him. That first year he lived with me was really bad, because I just wasn't making enough money. I've worked hard to cultivate more work and to try and get local work too and things are a lot better now.
When my son graduates from high school (he will be a Freshman this year!) we are leaving Indiana for good. I am tired of struggling. I wish I had the money to concentrate on documenting this place, which is declining economically VERY FAST. Real unemployment is about 25% and the city government admits that 70% of the jobs here pay less than $9 an hour. No one can live on that, not even here with our very low housing costs. An individual here, no kids, can live on $11 an hour. Increase that if you have any kids! So, there is a LOT of pain here in the city and I'd like to document it in a deeper manner than I have been able to do so far.