Godfrey
somewhat colored
I am not embarrassed at all looking at my camera display cabinet. In fact, I'm quite proud of it.
I no longer buy a new camera because of the "potential" to take better pictures, rather because I want to try the handling/feature, or because it looks handsome/pretty. And I enjoy buying/selling cameras too, wish I do enough of it to make a living. Alas, I don't 🙂
If you would like to develop your visual style, try to edit and select your pictures and make a photo-book. I see more of us here on RFF do this and the results are quite good, some are even better than commercially published ones.
I'm never 'proud' just because I own a lot of gear. I don't keep gear on display either. It's an aesthetic choice ... I want to enjoy photo gear because it is good gear that does the job well, is aesthetically pleasing and functionally effective, not objects signifying my presumed status or wealth. I have, off and on over time, made my income with photography; I'm not doing that at the present time.
Otherwise, I buy gear for much the same reasons you suggest.
I also agree with you about publishing: nothing improves your work better than finishing work — be it an exhibition, a book or whatever — and letting it go to the world.
While I've licensed and sold many many photos over the years, the first photo book I published and offered for sale, Ways Together, was published at the end of July in 2012. A tremendous amount of work, a lot of fun in the process, and I learned a lot from doing it. It's available from my blurb.com page:
http://www.blurb.com/user/GDGPhoto
I've enjoyed some great comments and critique sent back about it over the past several months. I plan to do at least another couple of books next year, presuming I can find the time.
Keep on trying, keep on learning. 🙂
G