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I am into baby Linhof’s big time. I have 10 2x3 Grafmatics, and 2x3 film holders for dip and dunk for my 3 1/2 gallon hard rubber Kodak dip and dunk tanks.

I kinda say that Linhof’s come with a free gym membership, and the don’t build old heavy German camera’s like they use to.

One of my Baby-Linhofs is a prototype Master V that lacks all movements except a rise. Pretty much a folding Linhof, an odd beast. No serial number.

The Linhof’s are one reason why my right arm is an inch longer than my left. I am deformed from carrying heavy cameras.

Also in NYC I often carried three rigged Leica’s in a book bag, or two medium format cameras to do death marches to street shoot in ghetto areas. The Bronx is not that big.

One September 11th I was actually chased by a NYPD helicopter from a rail yard in Long Island City. I scurried like a cock roach.

Cal
 
DU,

I am into baby Linhof’s big time. I have 10 2x3 Grafmatics, and 2x3 film holders for dip and dunk for my 3 1/2 gallon hard rubber
Somehow this quoting was an accident.

Devil Dan does a lot of cool and crazy things. His huge darkroom has mucho you-suck factor. Then he kinda has a “Camera-Museum” going on.

Then to top all this off he bought all this cherry picked gear for “no-money.”

A really smart guy.

BTW my friend Billy who is a real life Cliff Claven from Cheers genius know it all who recently retired as a high school janitor says, “The devil always has the best tools.” Devil Dan personifies this.

Cal
 
A big red screen today. The DOW down over 950 points, worse than yesterday.

Unemployment at 4.3%. Recession worries…

Now comes the mucho interesting FED response to it’s dual mandate: will the FED lower rates to stimulate the economy to help lower unemployment; or will the FED stand pat to continue to fight inflation?

Remember though that economic history suggests that inflation can easily be reignited. Inflation has moderated, but like momentum it still can pick up speed easily to basically undo all the previous rate cuts that so far have curbed inflation from going double digits.

400K unemployment job claims is the old number that signified in the past with great certainty a recession, but I don’t know or understand how that traditional number would work today. With work from home, so many side hustles, and new independent working I don’t know how all this will filter through.

The manufacturing index also repeatedly has slowed over the past few months.

IMHO it would be worse to allow inflation to gain momentum again. The price to pay would be higher unemployment.

Cal
 
Tomorrow night is an opening art event at my friend’s store that has a loft that is an art space.

I kinda gave him the idea. I sent the link to AJ, but he already has plans for Saturday night.

Today’s event is in Conn. A literary book signing event by many notable author’s, one of them being Ann Hood. “Maggie is part of this…

After my surprise beach vacation I am very-very dark. I look like a surfer though.

Anyways moving forward and pretty much we think our lives will get back to us. We will try to get the kids to be more independent and concentrate living our lives for ourselves.

Adult children have to grow up sometime, we can’t afford to sacrifice ourselves anymore, and we have to concentrate on just taking care of ourselves.

Cal
 
This literary event in Conn. is pretty much a garden party.

I had to dress a bit less slouchy to look the part of cute affluence and classy.

I feel like Superman who just came out of a telephone booth. LOL. I can play the part.

I look a bit Hollywood. You know the type: tall, dark, and conceded…

Cal
 
Devil Cal,

1/250 at F11 (one stop down) HP5+ rated at EI 250 for most copious shadow detail. Neg is sharp enough to go quite a bit bigger than 8x10. I have six 4x5 Graphmatics loaded with HP5+ and TMX400. The Schneider Sinar Norma Cone/Helical I have is marked in feet, rather than meters. I have a hyperfocal chart attached to the back of each Graphmatic, for quick reference. When I moved in on Mr. Peacock, I moved the focus forward a teeny bit.

I love this new rig and it is a joy to use. And Thanks again for the SS bolts, I used Pentax 6x7 Strap Lugs, drilled and tapped the Norma Frame to attach with your bolts.

Sinar Norma 4x5 Handy Super BubbaPack HV Battery Handy Bubble Level by Nokton48, on Flickr

MFM built me this "Super Bubbapack" which is Uber Powerful instaneous recycle. Love it too. Next Handy tests with Vivtar 365 which can be bought for "no money".
It's nice to be appreciated
 
Sharon Conn. is a UBERish community. Lots of horse fencing and these are second homes for people who live in NYC.

The word UBERish I made up in the car ride. “Maggie’s” Catholic School upbringing makes my inventions of words and new slang mucho annoying.

Pretty much as a person of color, I argue, it is my right to create slang, and to correct me is purely oppression.

UBERish means “over the top.” So when I use UBERish to describe Sharon it is wealthy in an over the top manner. Pretty much historical houses that date back to the 1780’s that are gigantic set back from the road on large plots of land.

I saw writer Lucy Sante who I saw once before at the Woodstock Book Festival. Francine Prose was there, and I would later learn that Ann Hood is a bad driver that rides her brakes.

Only a few people of color, two were authors. A kinda conservative crowd, and I was the only old hippy.

Maggie sold a lot of books and had a pleasant time. Seems the organizers were approached to have Maggie come back by herself to give a future talk.

Initially the rain brought the event indoors. It was a bit of a thunderstorm, but eventually the event moved out into the large tent. Lots of food and alcohol served.

Anyways Sharon is kinda due east of Poughkeepsie just over the New York border in Connecticut about 60 miles away. The village is tiny. A sleepy town.

Cal
 
I look a bit Hollywood. You know the type: tall, dark, and conceded…

Conceded? Check the definition on that one. Or did you mean conceited?

I reckon you may well be many things, Cal, but not conceited. Your posts prove me right on this...

Linhofs. I got rid of my two (a good one plus a spare one for parts, and boy! did I have to cannibalise that second one) as fast as I could find a buyer for it. By which time, being me, I had four beaut Zeiss lenses, two film backs and a box of accessories. I lost money on the cameras but made a profit on the lenses and the film backs, so I came out of it almost even. Not the best deal I've made, but the mental freedom I got by ridding myself of that sh*theap was worth that.

Me and my Rolleiflex 3.5E2 have been 'married' since 1966. Film is now too expensive in Australia so I don't use it much, I have a few dozen rolls of (sadly fading to dark grey) 120 in my film fridge at home but that will be it. Nonetheless I want that Rollei to be buried with me. 6x6 all the way...
 
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DU,

I have a Rolliflex 3.5 also but a White Face.

Got it at Adorama. It needed service, and Adorama did not price it as a rare White Face. Harry Fleenor did the service, and I upgraded the screen. A really nice camera.

I had a girlfriend who accused me of being tall, dark and conceited. LOL. Having good looks allowed me to do a lot of things and allowed me go get away with lots of bad behavior.

Last night I had a small bat flying around the inside of the house. I figure it got entry when I installed a window air conditioner in the second bedroom when the kids resided here, or perhaps it gained entrance with all the comings and goings. I found him clinging to a curtain, and now he is outside where he belongs.

According to myth a bat inside a house suggests a strong transformation will occur. In Hindu beliefs it is a sign of impending evil.

I remain fatigued from being a caretaker for the kids and dealing with the stress they impose.

Last night was some downpour on the ride home. In a ways the Audi got power washed.

Another heat advisory today.

Cal
 
Re your 3203. When is a recession not a recession? When the terrified politicians insist it's not one...

Here in Australia, our glorious leaders are running sh*t-scared that your economy will slip into recession, with our long-standing history of only doing what somebody else has done before we will then have to face the obvious fact that our own economy is in recession also and likely to stay there for some time. So if you go, we go too.

For us all the signs are there, and mostly being ignored. Here in Oz, it's business as usual - and what business wants, business gets.

Not a pleasant scenario for us to have to face, but recession is entirely possible, even probable. Or we may already be there.

Enough of economics (and politics). Let us now return to enjoying our lives in our respective nests. It's 7 PM here, time for a glass of good South Australian Limestone Coast red and an enjoyable dinner of baked Tasmanian sea trout and Ceasar salad. Some things where we are (and where you are) are always truly LG, long may they last!...
 
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I know from economic history that at this point the FED is damned if the cut rates and also damned if they don’t.

Pretty much the choice is a recession or encouraging a return of higher inflation. A rate cut is stimulus and will help prevent unemployment from getting out of hand, but realize that inflation thus far has only moderated and is still high. The concept of momentum favors inflation getting reignited if any rate cut happens.

The FED is in a tough spot, but I favor a downturn and a slower economy over inflation. This likely is selfish and my own self interest. I’m retired so unemployment does not place me in danger, but the suffering of those who become unemployed have a lot to loose, especially since so many households either have large debt loads or are living on debt.

In less words the FED has to pay higher interest on our deficit and interest rates have kinda hit a limit as far as how high they can go. Also know that government spending (stimulus) is a huge part of our GNP. The FED early hit a kinda ceiling in raising rates, because they too have a debt load that has to get rolled over into new debt at higher interest rates.

Pretty much treading water in deeper seas and further out from terra firma. I use the metaphor drowning in debt. Meanwhile storms churn…

Longer term it would be better if there would be a collapse of sorts economically, but there is a huge price to pay and a vast amount of suffering involved, along with great political implications. Throughout the world is a vast sea of debt. Even with a modest flooding this debt will drown many people.

When it comes to inflation, remember a strong dollar exported inflation, and hungry children made and created “Arab Spring.” Understand that food and energy are commodities that are priced in dollars. Trade deficits are a broad problem…

One of the early Photovilles clearly displayed the effects of global warming and how that lead to famines, then civil wars, then a refugee crisis.

Understand that eventually the money has to come from somewhere, and the era of “free-money,” zero APR, and record low interest rates are gone. Stimulus in the past prevented economic collapses, but eventually the tipping point will happen where interventions will no longer work.

We are on that path, I feel within a not so far away future the trap door will open, and pretty much an economic reset will have to happen. You can’t tread water forever…

Gold breached $2.5K last week creating a new higher high. Pretty much this is a speculative bet that in the future interest rates will be lower and that inflation will be greater. Inflation kinda makes everyone poorer, even the wealthy. Perhaps the only hedges are hard assets of enduring value: things that track like gold.

There was a pretty big sell-off in the stock markets last week. Don’t be surprised if Gold gets priced at $5K sometime in the future as currencies get further debased and purchasing power gets lowered. Follow the money: Cental Banks are accumulating physical gold. Banksters are smart money.

High gold prices denote trouble ahead: wars; economic collapse; inflation; and mucho turmoil.

Cal
 
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The weather looks to moderate next week with lower temperatures, but daily rain is a likely possibility. The lazy-slacker in me makes me want to forestall cutting the lawn as much as possible.

Anyways today is the day to cut the lawn. I learned my neighbor, the “Monster,” is back from vacation because I heard him mowing his lawn. Know that he is OCD about cutting his lawn.

Last night “Maggie” made the comment about my hair being down right before bedtime. Evidently the grey on my sides frames and enhances the flowing length that suggests perhaps a mighty cool old hippy with an arrogant all white chin beard with touches of white hair in his eye brows and towards the ends of his moustach.

Another framing is an old geezer surfer dude that remains hard core who still has a kid’s body that is trim and muscular. I think I will feed on this image and do some body building to bulk up a bit and get more cut.

Not so hard to do with just pushups and pull-ups. If I throw in some weights I’ll get mighty ripped. Not so far away I’ll be 67 years old in the beginning of the new year.

I have been somewhat lazy and a bit exhausted because of the surprise vacation and dealing with the family dysfunctions of the “kids.” It took its toll, and also is taking some time to recover.

Meanwhile I can see my discipline with my daily practice on the guitar expanding. There is a lot of growth happening, lots of relaxing, and pretty much I am becoming an animal who lives more in the moment. My ears have opened up, and something there with rhythm and pitch is expanding.

It is great to have our lives back. Yesterday we went to Trader Joe’s and got caught up in a soaking downpour. The rain was so heavy that a beach umbrella did little to keep us dry. We had to change our clothes when we got home.

There is a new Creative Art Group that will meet up on Tuesday August 13th. Pretty much the Peekskill Arts Alliance are the old guard that already is established and entrenched in Peekskill, and this new group are the younger artists that somewhat feel excluded.

I can see why arrogance by the older guard has pushed the new guard away. There is a lot of ego in the old guard, perhaps inflated and fragile. Basically a lack of respect and not being taken seriously has created a generation gap.

Maggie and I are able to bridge the gap. My attitude is just to attend and listen out of respect, and to allow this new group to lead itself. Purposely I want to be a bystander just offering support. Pretty much I want to unwind the hurt and disrespect shown by the older artists. My ego will not be in the way.

Also in another post I suggested that I feel I am no longer an artist, but just a creative thinker. My definition of an artist is someone trying to establish notoriety, recognition, and monetary gain through art. I had a day job and a clear boundary for financial security. Having fame of being a celeb to me is a liability, and I want to avoid it.

For me art should be fun, stimulating, and not work. More like being a child at play who is developing, growing, and expanding.

I guess I have a rather rigid view, but I want to avoid frustration, apathy, and any confusion. I’m totally cool with being an unknown and invisible, because I want to keep my cool.

It will be interesting to see the drama and how all this plays out. Remember I’m a Smut Queen.

I think letting my hair down will be a bit of a performative event. Not only a disguise and a separate identity, but also a way to exaggerate my sexuality. Kinda like a woman with nice a breast with ripe nipples wearing no bra who flaunts her assets.

Know that I’m well aware that I am and can be a big tease. I confess: I can be a big flirt. Nothing wrong with exploiting assets.

With my pony tail I tend to undercut a feral aspect of my character that exposes an element of a wild man.

Cal
 
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A headline is that 7 out of the ten most expensive cities in the world to live are in the U.S. with New York City rated number 3.

For me the surprise was London was not on the list. I had thought NYC and London were comparable, but somehow London did not make the cut of top-ten.

Anyways, I live about an hour’s train ride on Metro-North from Grand Central. As they say in real estate: “The three best reasons to buy a house is location, location, and location.”

Add on top of that Peekskill is a rivertown and the Gateway to the Hudson Highlands.

We are golden…

We are also about an hour’s drive to Woodstock and the Catskills.

Cal
 
Baking a turkey breast to make sandwiches for dinner on sour dough bread. Fresh herbs from the garden and some garlic I squeezed through a press.

They say “the devil has the best tools,” and pretty much my kitchen has the best. Can’t live without a gas stove with a convection oven for even temperatures. Pretty much perfection.

The house smells great, and the mini-split counters any heat buildup.

Today I utilized about 16 feet of spare 30 inch wide root barrier to make a three foot bottomless cyclinder to be used as a mulch holder for garden and kitchen organics. I learned that the open pile invites insects and especially yellow jackets. We have an underground yellow jacket nest that has to be dealt with. An exterminator will be coming tomorrow, so I put off doing the lawn.

Wasps I would handle myself with a spay can, but yellow jackets are more involved.

A clever design of rolling the long flat plastic stock into a cylinder and using a row of pop rivets to secure an edge through overlapping layers. The idea is when ful just lift and then you have a pile to shovel. EZ-PZ.

I set this up in the dead end on land I kinda annexed.

Tomorrow I will look up a free gym to join. The closest is a Planet Fitness that happens to be here right in Peekskill. It is free as part of my Medicare Advantage Plan. If its free, its for me. Nothing fancy and all I need is a basic gym with no frills. Being close and convenient is a priority.

One way to get skinnier is to gain some muscle mass, which speeds up the metabolism. Pretty much muscle, even when not used, has to be maintained. Glycogen gets stored there, and this is a supply for quick energy. Excess calories get stored in muscle instead of getting converted into slow burning fat.

For me it is easier to loose weight by gaining lean muscle rather than burn the fat through exercise I think.

Cal
 
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I am learning how fast strength fades. “Use it or loose it,” they say.

Got back to doing push ups and pull-ups, which take very little time out of my day, but it is best if I do them in the morning just after I wake because you know me, I’m lazy.

So to get real about longevity and maintaining my independence later in life it is mucho important to maintain strength as a base of sorts.

Certainly the first day attempts are a wake-up and there is of course “rust,” and I expect tomorrow a drastic and rather sudden improvement. I could only do 6 pull-ups in a set and 50 pushups in a set, but tomorrow I expect higher numbers.

Strength fades faster as you age…

Anyways this is pretty rude and now a key word in my life and “Maggie’s” is an awakening. A lot of clarity and focus has emerged with my guitar playing, and Maggie with her writing. We seem less distracted and have a lower tolerance for BS. We also seem to be more intimate with our thinking and understanding.

So another beginning with strength training begins after a bit of a lay off…

Cal
 
Big story for me is Faulkner winning the woman’s Gold medal in a road race.

Pretty much a surprise and a story of an underdog who just felt strong today. She kinda filled in a spot, and her real Olympic event was being on the Pursuit Team.

I got a lot of joy reading the story.

Us Americans are full of surprises.

Cal
 
A savage red screen today in the markets. The VIX, or Volatility Index. Is over 40, jumping from 16 just last week. At one point it hit over 82 (not a typo). Pretty much a big sell off is happening and is underway. Could be a scary day.

Meanwhile there is serious “Carry-Trade” happening with the Japanese Yen. This tactic involves borrowing Yen at a low interest rate and buying other investments that have a higher yield to pocket the difference. The risk does get amplified because this carry-trade is used by hedge funds that use up to 30 to one leverage. When loses happen they can be big.

This could be mucho ugly. I’m going by the future’s pre-market numbers. 9:30 today will be interesting…

I imagine gold is being taken down by “forced-selling” because margin calls are happening. Cash has to be raised to cover loses or else forced selling occurs to have adiquit collateral to prevent the banks that are extending credit from ever experiencing losses.

So the game of musical chairs has begun and the music (soft landing) has stopped. “Look out below,” I say.

I watched a lot of U-Tube performances. My powder room off the kitchen has good acoustics I learned, and even an IPAD sounds good. I miss me tube stereo…

I learned a lot about singing last night. Pretty much you can sing using your chest, your head, and your head and chest. Then there is exploiting your natural range and voice. I think I am a baritone/tenor, and my range falls within the first 12 frets of the six strings, but the high “E” string and the other higher strings can be a strain.

Not so sure of the best genre for my voice yet. I think and believe that being able to sing will enhance and add fluidity and smoothness to my guitar playing.

I got a vocal tutorial last night that offered a reinforcement to the attitude required when I was a performance artist and a creature of the world of theater. Of course one has to learn to deal with performance anxiety. I was reminded of how one needs to just put everything into the performance, and that is all you can do.

The anxiety pretty much is caused by self consciousness and wasting energy on thinking about the response of the audience. The voice tutorial suggested to frame a performance as a gift to eliminate any expectation or response. By making a performance a gift it changes everything.

I have done this before, and I know the results. This reframing certainly has application elsewhere. In a ways wanting or the need/expectation for a return or interaction in a way commodifies and countermands the idea of a gift. A gift is not a gift unless given freely…

So a great amount of growth musically and personally is underway. A major part of BS has been cut away, that resonates with other posts here, about freedom, creativity, and even the definition of being an artist. I have been preaching about not wanting fame or recognition.

I am not a religious person. In fact I dislike all organized religions, but I do believe in a higher power and perhaps even having a destiny. I realize what I’m expressing here is part of my spiritual journey. I do believe there is some greater meaning to my life, and that somehow I am being guided and protected. It is not luck or coincidence that I am alive, and I should have been dead many-many times.

Today the lawn will get mowed. The oppressive humidity has moderated. Sometime in the morning the exterminator will come.

Last night I played my custom Santa Crux Model “F,” and it indicated a vast improvement in my playing. Very clean and fluid with a level of smoothness was displayed to give me a sense of accomplishment.

My muscles are taunt from the strength exercise performed yesterday, even though I did not do very much. In the mirror I see the tightness and the muscle tone. Pretty much I have returned to being a skinny bitch. My guess is that I’m weighing in at 155-156, and I’m 5’10.” I figure around 152 or less is my “fighting-weight” meaning all muscle and totally ripped.

Don’t forget that muscle is more dense than fat…

I dug into this tribute performance for George Harrison at the Rock And Roll Hall Of Fame. The song that was covered was “While My Guitar Gently Weeps” being sung by Tom Petty in 2004.

There was a suggestion that there was some drama/conflict in a rehearsal between Prince and another guitarist who played lead. Basically the other lead guitarist played into or over Princes lead. It was also suggested that Prince let it go, but also possibly skipped another rehearsal.

The actual performance though had the other lead guitarist performing the first and second solo’s, and then Prince had the third. It was also suggested that Prince had to listen to the song and learn it. The reason he took the gig is because he admired Tom Petty. Also Prince was also being inducted into the R&R Hall Of Fame, so basically he was just sitting in.

Anyways, Prince certainly put on an amazing performance. It blows me away. He never lost his cool, and pretty much stole the show. He held back, but when he emerged it came with impact.

Cal
 
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