Many years ago, when I was in my early 20's I was warned that turning Pro would kill my passion for photography. (I am trained as en engineer). Undaunted, I resigned my job and started eaning my living from my passion.
Now, about 45 years later, I can report that living from your passion can be a dampener, can be trying, can be thankless, etc. ...... just like any job!
BUT overall, what a fantastic rollercoaster ride it has been (still is?). There is no way I could have learned so much about my love by just fiddling around with it. There is no way I could have bought all the beautiful gear I did for work, and thus was able to 'play' with it.
The adrenalin rush of doing 'the impossible' just because someone wanted it done, getting opportunities to shoot in places where the 'average Joe' was barred, and so on.
So, now at 64 I am getting tired of the pressure, but still loving the challenge of each assignment. These days, when everyone has a Digital this or that, many think they can do my job for a fraction of the cost, which is true. But their pics can't compete with 45 years of knowledge springing off the steepest learning curve I have faced yet.
The result is, I no longer call myself a photographer. I am a 'Trouble Shooter'. When it gets too hard or imossible for you, call me! Be prepared to pay for fixing up what you stuffed up and I still meet your deadline, even if it has already expired. 🙂
I find myself wanting to retire so that I can indulge my passion full time, but photographers don't usually take home a lot of money and I am no exception, so I need to keep working.
Since I have been focussing more on my own work, my style has changed as a consequence. I am glad I followed/still follow the above path because I needed the pressure for me to produce effectively. I believe the same is true on a personal level. Going out with a camera is not the most effective way of getting good picture. Needing to achieve a particular end, maybe in a particular time, is a great catalyst for 'producing' something.
Enough of this rant.
Paula, I hope this puts some clarity before you.
May you choose with your heart.
Cheers,
Erl