This could be a serious delusion. I've known people in their 40's who look like Charles Atlas, with the energy of a bull, drop stone cold dead in their tracks without the slightest warning. A lot of them are vegans or health food nuts.
They look very nice in the funeral home though. Well-kept, lean, muscular corpses with nice hairdos.
As a matter of fact, they often look better dead than I do alive. I look like a schlub. Many the times I've been told "he looks better dead than you do alive".
Indeed, I've had friends a lot younger than me kick off suddenly. Good health and minimal vices are no guarantee in this life, but they
do up your odds. One of my mother's favorite sayings was
live fast, die young, and have a beautiful corpse. (She died rather old, and I reckon she preferred it that way, save for the cancer that got her.) I'd say that, given the choice of dying with your boots on (or
maybe off...remember Nelson Rockefeller
🙂), and dying a painful, drawn-out, pathetic death, most would opt for the latter (Dad died at 64, on the dance floor of a cruise liner near the Carribean...that's not the
worst way to go, by far, but I'm hoping to push that date back by at least a decade or two). As mentioned earlier, I very nearly bought the big casino in a serious car accident at 17, so any illusions I might have harbored about death (and, for that matter, life) were shattered early on. But, rather than make me a morose mugwump, I developed a greater enthusiasm for life in the day-to-day than I had before, and that's largely stuck with me ever since. I'd say I'm a happier person because of it. (Eventually coming out in one piece helped.)
None of us know what will happen, or how, or when. But I pour another glass, load another roll of film, get into the saddle, and push off. Or, to quote a lint from a favorite song of my childhood, "Tell It Like It Is" (which, in a way, also makes your point):
Life is too short to have sorrow
You may be here today and gone tomorrow
You might as well get what you want
So go on and live, baby, go on and live
- Barrett