If I said it once, I'll say it again
🙂 Changing equipment won't change the reaosn you feel embarassed.
I'm sure you'll overcome it but basically; sod what anybody else thinks. You just do your thing and ignore what people may or may not think. Who cares! You don't need to because whatever it is you're interested in you like it for some reason and you got no business in needing to explain that to anyone. I spent enough of my life with my family mocking me for my fascination with things that well, what the hell? But damn it I'm interested in them and I'm not going to take pictures of Robins or Sparrows just cos that's what 'normal' people do.
Martin Parr said take pictures of the things you are interested in, not what you think you should be.
If anyone questions you why, just say because you're interested in it, and if they give you a funny look, just ignore it, who cares, you'll likely never see them again, wanna go through life miffed cos you're not expressing yourself in what you want to do? Then follow the crowd and do the pictures of all the things you're not bothered in
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You'll get there!
I take pictures of people's houses, flyovers and roads, pylons and all manner of other urban grit (as well as a good boat load of people, and landscapes and nature etc.) and yes I probably have had a lot of funny looks but who cares, here's a good example:
It's not just the picture though (yep it's someone's house) but if you click that picture, you will see someone has told me, without asking (or really being too bothered) what that type of lamp post is! There is truly someone for everything in this world, so explore what your own unique perception of the world is by being and actively photographing what this world means to you, rather than being put off by people who are scared of transgressing outside of their perceived normality.
Vicky