Tell me about it. Mine is all digital, but still... a lot to go through. Luckily those books I've made will come in handy as large contact sheets of sorts. A rough edit has already been done.
Let her do her thing and let here know that you have to do your own thing. You guys will be fine as l;iong as you respect each others decisions.
Yeah, I don't miss the BS, but I miss my friends of course. I don't have any photography friends here. I do have a brand new city to explore and it's not as over-photographed as NYC. That's pretty cool.
John,
NYC is getting a bit stale for me. I feel the shots I have, many with you, are more interesting and vital than the work I'm doing now. Perhaps it is the low laying fruit metaphor. I'm really glad I shot a lot. So much is gone.
I suppose NYC is mucho improved for the wealthy, but I'm not so sure it is all worth the hassle. I know having a darkroom is an essential need for me, and I have been without one for too long. Maggie knows that I need a place to work and a darkroom is a requirement.
She is afraid that the fame she created will go away. She likes all the travel, and her VIP status. It annoys her that I want to remain low key, I don't want to pursue fame, nor wealth; and it has been made abundantly clear I appreciate a simple life that embraces leisure and is not so busy. In a way I have an outlook that is more like Christian's. I have no problem letting her travel and leaving me a lone, just don't leave me with your stress.
I want to live a long time, and I know that means a simple and humble life. I think I sacrificed enough all these decades to basically do what I want without needing approval of others. For me money is not the point in life, and I want a life rich in experience and good times.
I don't think Maggie understands how her life seems to be a blur because she is moving so fast. I understand what racing is about because I was once a racer (bicycles). If you are not almost out of control, and not at the hairy edge, you are not really racing.
I'm at a point in my life where the analogy is I want to get on my bike with no destination, but I want to ride a long time to see what I might see, and although I want to go far, I don't want to do so much distance that the following day I can't do it again in another direction. In other words I much more prefer to go on long rides than race at a level of intensity that is not sustainable.
I am really proud of Maggie, but my greatest achievement as a man is making this woman happy.
Cal
