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Feels good resting up.

My arms are getting skinnier as I am loosing muscle mass, I seem to be stabilizing around 153-154 pounds. By definition now a skinny bitch, but with some return of bloat. The fem-out continues another 19 months, then it will take a year to a year and a half for the drugs to wear off.

I am becoming more fem and I see the differences, pretty much it is like reverting to a teenager again. Back then I would describe myself as scrawny and lanky.

Our niece misses her family, and that includes us and our kids. Motherhood with a newborn exaggerates isolation. They have a lot of friends in Austin, but they are via her husband’s friends and network.

My thinking is with a child that family support becomes exaggerated. Our niece’s parents are not the most steadfast, so “Maggie” has developed a closeness to fill the gap. Alcohol/drinking has a past in our niece’s parents history.

I’m cool with offering support. I kinda grew up alone and without support, and pretty much I am and have been a caretaker. I have no problem stepping up.

Our niece’s brother lives in Kingston about an hour and 15 minutes drive, and this area is likely where they will settle.

For me I have been waiting for a few years for this move to happen.

So after my radiation treatment ends (15 more), after August 29th, we will head to Austin to see the newborn baby boy.

I kinda grew up without family, so this life is something I never had. It is kinda healing to fill that hole in my life.

I get a lot of joy and happiness from all these ”kids…”

Cal
 
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From my very limited experience restoring an old track bike not unlike this one, back when I was working for the shop full time, the wood rims eliminate all high frequency vibration. I'm really hoping to find a good set of hubs then get a pair of new production wood rims from Italy (or NOS ones available here and there) and build up a set of rider wheels.
Phil
 
Here's some component updates.
All the metal bits are stamped ENGLAND. Seatpost also has a '4' stamped. Seatpost clamp has Brit and U.S Patents.

Evaporust worked wonders.
The hubs are BSA and the rims are from Onaway, Michigan, American Wood Rim Co., probably Lobdell.

I'll be taking the rear wheel off during the next round of cleaning, then really inspecting the frame for any more markings.
Feel free the check the forum thread for images and more commentary.
Phil
 
My body is reverting into teenager mode. Less muscle mass, skinny arms, and scant body hair.

The fem-out is really-real.

Only 14 more radiation treatments. After they end I’ll see my radiation oncologist after a month and then at 6 month intervals.

My doctors are very happy with the low amount of side effects. I figure once radiation therapy ends that I’ll be over a major hump.

Cal
 
They say Cancer ages you. The fatigue side effect and loss of strength makes me feel like a 75-80 year old. No joke.

The anemia makes me winded, and the heat today depletes me rapidly.

Then a boyish body is emerging…

The hormone treatment started in April with the injections, then there was a delay of about 2 months for the Inhibitor and steroid treatment, so April or June 2027 hormone treatment ends.

A year to a year and a half is required for the drugs to wear off and for my body to normalize so now we are looking at April 2028 as the earliest where that there might be an indication that I beat the Prostate Cancer. Could be as late as 2029.

Then there is a 30% chance that I will never produce testosterone ever again.

Very hard to do any strength training or exertion with the weakness and fatigue. I am concerned…

Cal
 
Somehow I am resembling both and older man than my 67 years, and reverting to a teenager.

How odd and strange. I kinda look younger, but I feel older.

It will take a while to see where I stand more than two years from now.

I seem also to be bloating back up.

As radiation treatment goes on the fatigue builds. My Radiation Oncologist says that my fatigue is mostly due to the hormone treatment.

My hematologist/oncologist says it take a full 6 months for the side effects to build up. I began in April so sometime in October I should somewhat know where I stand with the side effects. Early end of hormone treatment is April 2027.

When I worked at Sloan-Kettering I understood that with chemo they come pretty close to killing the patient to kill the Cancer.

I figure my treatment is kinda severe, but at least it is not as bad as chemo.

I also understand that if I had any other chronic disease that things would get complicated fast.

I live in a limbo.

Cal
 
Calzone said:
Somehow I am resembling both and older man than my 67 years, and reverting to a teenager.

How odd and strange. I kinda look younger, but I feel older.

It will take a while to see where I stand more than two years from now.

I seem also to be bloating back up.

As radiation treatment goes on the fatigue builds. My Radiation Oncologist says that my fatigue is mostly due to the hormone treatment.

My hematologist/oncologist says it take a full 6 months for the side effects to build up. I began in April so sometime in October I should somewhat know where I stand with the side effects. Early end of hormone treatment is April 2027.

When I worked at Sloan-Kettering I understood that with chemo they come pretty close to killing the patient to kill the Cancer.

I figure my treatment is kinda severe, but at least it is not as bad as chemo.

I also understand that if I had any other chronic disease that things would get complicated fast.

I live in a limbo.

Cal
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Calzone said:
Somehow I am resembling both and older man than my 67 years, and reverting to a teenager.

How odd and strange. I kinda look younger, but I feel older.

It will take a while to see where I stand more than two years from now.

I seem also to be bloating back up.

As radiation treatment goes on the fatigue builds. My Radiation Oncologist says that my fatigue is mostly due to the hormone treatment.

My hematologist/oncologist says it take a full 6 months for the side effects to build up. I began in April so sometime in October I should somewhat know where I stand with the side effects. Early end of hormone treatment is April 2027.

When I worked at Sloan-Kettering I understood that with chemo they come pretty close to killing the patient to kill the Cancer.

I figure my treatment is kinda severe, but at least it is not as bad as chemo.

I also understand that if I had any other chronic disease that things would get complicated fast.

I live in a limbo.

Cal
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Hang in there, Cal. Your many ongoing treatments are really a challenge, I know, but you will get through them and revert to your usual annoying self. Sending lots of positive energy your way.
 
Good news is my radiation treatment has changed from a blanket dose to my pelvic region to a targeted localized treatment. The radiation is less and there is less time on the table. The quicker in and out is less fatiguing. I feel a lot more human.

Only 13 more treatments and on August 29th will be the last one. The remaining treatments will be the highly targeted ones that are brief.

I learned today that the three licensed radiation therapists talk about food all day at work. “What did you have last night for dinner?” And, “What are you going to have tonight.” Basically foodies. Been thinking about getting them a gift of a Chinese cook book as well as some food gift.

Showed off my Victorian diamond ring and Edwardian diamond ring. One dates back to the 1850’s, and the Edwardian is about 1880. On me they are pinky rings I wear together on my left pinky.

One of the radiation therapists is of Irish decent, and what once graced British nobility is now worn on an Asian’s finger as a display of power and wealth. A post-colonial F-U statement. This Irish woman understood the context fully.

Did you know that Ireland is the Silicone Valley and tech-center of Europe? “Maggie” has both Irish and English blood in her along with some Dutch. We will be digging into Ireland in the future. Maggie identifies as being Irish mostly.

Cal
 
Calzone said:
Saw a headline that Kodak might be down and out.

Imagine a world without Tri-X or 5122.

Mucho sad if true.

Cal
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Seems like very alarming headlines, in line with our contemporary world and communication patterns.
So the business itself appears to be good, the film side has actually been invested lately and it's the obligations which are the burden.

Kodak's report: Kodak Reports Second-Quarter 2025 Financial Results

They are the Color manufacturer so honestly it would be the saddest thing to lose. I sadly haven't really been a Kodak B&W user.
 
Kinda crazy…

I bought 25 packs of Fuji FP-100 for I think $20.00 a pack. As I remember $500.00 total.

I still have around 20 packs, but now that film is dated.

Now on EBAY a pack of FP-100 seems to go for $400.00 a pack for refrigerated ones. I have to check, but I think mine are some of the last batch.

Mine has been stored in my root cellar.

Cal
 
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