David, I'm sorry to hear about your plight. Having been in similar dire straights during my life my best advice to you is to try, somehow, to remain as positive as you can be under the circumstances. It took time, and I hit rock botton, but eventually rebounded. The same will happen for you. I will refrain from blasting the party of McCarthyism; the senseless Iraq war; stopping funding or allowing access to stem cells from fertility clinics; "birthers"; Sarah Palin; "Teabaggers"; AM hate-jock radio; Fox "News"; Nixon; K-Street Scandal; Gramm-Leach-Bliley 1999 (which removed the restrictions on banks engaging in risky investment banking activities put in place after the Depression, thus clearly enabling the current global financial crisis); homophobia; xenophobia; ignoring the overwhelming evidence and science that supports climate change in favor of "hand waving" to the detriment of our future; anti- sensible gun control legislation; anti-evolutionists, "intelligent design" taught in science class; acting as obstructionists for political gain instead of improving out 37th ranked health care system that results in 60% of all personal banruptcies, 20% of the nation having no coverage, and 35% of men aged 20-29 to not have coverage; turing a budget surplus into an historic deficit while giving tax breaks to the wealthiest 1%-ers via their unethically slanted taxation policy; a failed anti-terrorism policy that was exposed on Sept. 11, 2001; "The Southern Strategy"; Birchers; religious zealots; and militias... other than to say "typical". They're on the wrong side of every issue and place their failed ideologies above reason - it's what defines them. Others pay the price. Sadly and clearly you're among those paying the price for their failed and stupid ideologies currently, but have faith - you will rebound.