dee
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As a an entity outside of the majority shared Landscape , mindscape , common sense - autistic glitch + other stuff , it's extremely dee-ficult for me to focus upon and listen to real people .[ it's like they are out of phase , not real ]
I am , also , for various real reasons , absolutely scared silly by men , all men .OOPS !!
This is NOT A GOOD THING for a child as it eliminates 50 % of potential caregivers - 'specially as I am supposedly XY and try to '' live as a man '' by mimicry / copying
However I now realise that IT"S NOT MY FAULT - that my head is broken , so i try not to pretend to be a real person so much .
But , it's OK in cyberspace - and this forum in it's complexity and breadth of interests is a lifeline for me - i can participate from a dee-stance , and no one has belittled my strange reasons for gathering in so many Leicas and Leica-likes just to calm the constant noise in my head . [ There is only so much I can talk to Mums of autistic kids , learn / advise on ASD forums or the boy ? girl ? who am I crowd , before it gets oppressive and dee pressing . ]
I also became koshed by Kievs , which has eaten big time into my Leica like budget - and it's all you guy's fault , 'cos I am too impressionable .
When I dee's covered, almost a year ago , that both hands AND eyes could connnect to the Leica and Leica likes , I was concerned at joining a Leica forum , 'cos there seems to be a divide between the real and the USSR pretenders .
What this forum does which so few do , is invite anyone - whatever there reasons for turning to rangefinder cameras , whatever the camera , wherever , and whoever to participate without some of the supercilious attitude of some places .
Even my Leica copies / tributes seem to have a small following , though few sensibly I guess , seem to actually buy them in preference to original cameras . But no one disparages , other than gentle teasing , those who choose a dee ferent path to , in my situation , less confusion . We all seem to flinch at rthe real OTT efforts , whilst admiring the ingenuity or sheer cheek / folly of the perpetrators - and it does extend the horizons of the Red mist - some can be seen for miles through any mist !
i have not posted any pics - 'cos I have dee ficulty in getting films developed [ finances other than e-bay toy sales controlled by A.N.Other , long suffering carer which she never asked for ... ] and bewilderment with web sites and scanning etc
Yet I am still listening and posting mostly rubbish , and when all have moved on , and have had a sympathetic hearing .
So many specialist groups seem cliqueish [ spelling ?] and intolerant of those they consider not their kind of people - this just does not happen here .
OK there are strong opinions voiced , but I did not come here to hear one voice - I love the controversy and the fun side too .
So , as ever , i have said too much , but I really am gratefull to have something to occupy a dee storted mind and genuinely believe that this forum has something special in terms of tolerance - and humour / humor , depending where you are coming from !
I am just a follower here - a newbie amongst some really established long term photographers - so maybe it'snot for me to say anthing ,[ I have the greatest dee'ficulty with social strata and knowing what's acceptable ] but maybe it is the uncertain outsider who most needs the reasurance that you all provide >What do you think ?
Thanks to all of you .
dee
I am , also , for various real reasons , absolutely scared silly by men , all men .OOPS !!
This is NOT A GOOD THING for a child as it eliminates 50 % of potential caregivers - 'specially as I am supposedly XY and try to '' live as a man '' by mimicry / copying
However I now realise that IT"S NOT MY FAULT - that my head is broken , so i try not to pretend to be a real person so much .
But , it's OK in cyberspace - and this forum in it's complexity and breadth of interests is a lifeline for me - i can participate from a dee-stance , and no one has belittled my strange reasons for gathering in so many Leicas and Leica-likes just to calm the constant noise in my head . [ There is only so much I can talk to Mums of autistic kids , learn / advise on ASD forums or the boy ? girl ? who am I crowd , before it gets oppressive and dee pressing . ]
I also became koshed by Kievs , which has eaten big time into my Leica like budget - and it's all you guy's fault , 'cos I am too impressionable .
When I dee's covered, almost a year ago , that both hands AND eyes could connnect to the Leica and Leica likes , I was concerned at joining a Leica forum , 'cos there seems to be a divide between the real and the USSR pretenders .
What this forum does which so few do , is invite anyone - whatever there reasons for turning to rangefinder cameras , whatever the camera , wherever , and whoever to participate without some of the supercilious attitude of some places .
Even my Leica copies / tributes seem to have a small following , though few sensibly I guess , seem to actually buy them in preference to original cameras . But no one disparages , other than gentle teasing , those who choose a dee ferent path to , in my situation , less confusion . We all seem to flinch at rthe real OTT efforts , whilst admiring the ingenuity or sheer cheek / folly of the perpetrators - and it does extend the horizons of the Red mist - some can be seen for miles through any mist !
i have not posted any pics - 'cos I have dee ficulty in getting films developed [ finances other than e-bay toy sales controlled by A.N.Other , long suffering carer which she never asked for ... ] and bewilderment with web sites and scanning etc
Yet I am still listening and posting mostly rubbish , and when all have moved on , and have had a sympathetic hearing .
So many specialist groups seem cliqueish [ spelling ?] and intolerant of those they consider not their kind of people - this just does not happen here .
OK there are strong opinions voiced , but I did not come here to hear one voice - I love the controversy and the fun side too .
So , as ever , i have said too much , but I really am gratefull to have something to occupy a dee storted mind and genuinely believe that this forum has something special in terms of tolerance - and humour / humor , depending where you are coming from !
I am just a follower here - a newbie amongst some really established long term photographers - so maybe it'snot for me to say anthing ,[ I have the greatest dee'ficulty with social strata and knowing what's acceptable ] but maybe it is the uncertain outsider who most needs the reasurance that you all provide >What do you think ?
Thanks to all of you .
dee
