... I am not religious, I hate all organized religions, but not only am I spirited, I am highly spiritual. So many Devine interventions and remarkable interventions that reinforce my belief in divine intervention.
... Anyways there seems to be a deeper meaning here, and I have not figured it out. I feel like in the “Blues Brothers,” “I’m on a mission from God.” How crazy is that? And I don’t feel grandiose saying that. Something remarkable is going on that has a deeper meaning. A big mystery…
I guess what comes across here though in my writings is the human experience, and the gift of intelligence that I hope not to waste.
I do wonder about my destiny… My life seems much less important than my destiny… All this is feelings that I have had since a child…
Apologies first. I did a bit of selective editing on your (above) post, to bring to the fore the points I want to focus on.
What you wrote is deep.
As a late convert to Minimalist Buddhism - I won't attempt to explain this term, it would derail your thread and hijack it, which I don't want to do - I would sum up what you wrote as "all in the laps of the gods". Which in itself is a major contradiction for me, as traditionally Buddhists either do not believe in any god/gods at all, or they take a middle-of-the-road approach and say, well, okay, there may be a god/gods but as good and devoted Buddhists we try to deal with other matters and we aren't concerned with that issue. Which maybe makes very little sense to some and even no sense at all to many, but to Buddhists it is perfectly logical even if we can't explain it.
You are spiritual in a classic if non-religious sense as you see your destiny as both manifest and manifold - the first term means it is entirely to yourself, the latter term expands it in the broader sense, that you have a purpose, but some or most or even all of it has so far escaped you. As it usually does. Again, I also say this for myself here, or to put it in more simple terms, welcome to the (Buddhist) club.
I could go more deeply into this ,but again I fear hijacking your thread and rejigging it to points that would take us away from your life, your activities, your recent events health and other, and your thoughts. Best to keep your thread entirely as it is, unique and wonderful...
To me an important part of 'managing' one's destiny, even if you fail to grasp exactly what it is. Information, acquiring and dealing with it, is the key to succeeding in all things, especially life and health.
We really do not know how or why we are here or what the future holds for us. But as a dear friend, also a Buddhist abbot, often says, the future is basically like the horizon anyway - the closer you get to it, the further it runs away from you.
On that note, I again wish you well, and the very best outcome for the medical events you are about to go through. Remember to do as the Buddhists do - treat it all as an adventure. Also be sure to ask questions. Information is power!!
